Good Vibes Coming My Way

Sometimes getting out of your comfort zone helps you forget or temporarily distract you from something that utterly damaged you and your heart to the core. But i figured, spending some alone time will be great start... just you know, pamper myself.

A new environment definitely helps me to not think about the pain and past, but..uugghhhh, to be honest, it is not that easy. Sometimes, things reminded me of the pain.. What could have been done, what should have been done, can i make the clock reverse, so on and so forth. But soon I realized one thing was for sure, Everything happens for a reason. So, I told myself, Maya, Stop dwelling on the past and begin a new chapter.

Thus, to snap out of the pain, the healing process began. In this process, you will always try to not get it to affect you and carry on your day with a big wide smile on your face, but, inside it's a different story. So to clear my head, I did and doing whatever will do. Changing my life is one of it. Changing? How? You might be questioning me now. Changing my life to be simple yet satisfying, not for others, but for Me, Myself and I.

How am I doing it? Simple. I choose solitude over forced connections that don't flow because I realized I had to love myself before I can love others. Shopping (mostly window shopping that won't get my purse emptied), Travelling, where I can absorb the sights and the sound of the surroundings, and of course, EATING. I remember having this appetite when I was younger. The appetite for good food is a pleasure of life. Not merely eating to live, but living to eat. So, I have started to feed my soul with delicious foods - like literally.

Right now, exploring my life is the best thing to do, I believe. The moment I realized I need to take my mind off things, I had to lose myself first. Lose myself in the hope to find myself, again. So, I finally start to love my life again. Taking pictures of everything that made and making me smile like a li'l girl and putting them up in my room, made me understand one thing, There's more to life than just being alive.

I have one thing, only one thing in my mind, I'm gonna take my life and make it the best story in the world. Sounds funny? Maybe yes, Maybe no. I'm gonna experience everything that has been missing out from my life. I know i can't experience everything, but just because you can’t experience everything doesn’t mean you shouldn’t experience anything, right? I'm just gonna do the things that I'm scared to do. Risking? Yes, I am. To be honest, everything's a risk. Not doing anything is a risk. It's actually up to us whether we wanna live our life to the fullest by doing the scary sh*t and experience that adrenaline rush.

Screw the normal life, because, many of us die and no one remembers a thing we did. Why wanna make it boring? We have one life, and let's not waste that at any moment. Sounds like advising you guys, nope, not in my wildest dreams. I am actually telling myself that I have to remember this throughout my life. So that i can go out loving my life and myself, and maybe, by luck, love someone, the right one, with all my heart and write the best story of my life.